Please, if you can, pray for this girl and her family. Her end is nearing and she is in intense pain that is barely managable. Her parents are wonderful people and this little girl has hung in there with the best attitude anyone could ever have. http://www.christithomas.blogspot.com/

One year ago today, my mom died peacefully. It was the worst day of my entire life. I can still see her slumped over in the bed at the hospice place with the covers up to her neck. I knew when I walked into that room that she had already taken her last breath. Not a day goes by that I dont think of her. Sometimes it seems likes it been years since she died. Other times, it feels like it was just yesterday. I miss her more than anything. When she died I didn't think I would be able to go on by myself. Even though I never admitted it, I depended on Mom a great deal. I have tried my best to be a better person and only went on because I had to. Im glad i did though. We love you mom and miss you and will be together one day again!!!!

One year ago, on this very night, it would be the last time I would ever hear my mother's voice. She was talking crazy, hallucinating, and then slipped into a coma. I sat up with her the entire night making sure she wasnt aggitated.

Today as Kendra and I were walking into the mall, in front of us were two older women walking next to each other. Clearly they were mother and daughter. The daughter was probably my mom's age and the mother probably about 80. When I saw them, instantly i was jealous. I figured they were going shopping and maybe even having lunch. I remembered the days when mom and I would go shopping and buy the kids things. Or, we would go to Costco for things we needed around the house. Many times we just went out to lunch. TGIFriday's was one of mom's favorites. She always got the triple jack combo. I was in a daze for about 10 minutes after seeing the ladies, with every memory I had of mom running through my head. I wanted to cry. I wanted to throw up. I was mad as hell at God for doing this to me! Why did that woman still have her mom around and here I am, way younger, with no mother? Then I started to feel guilty. Shouldnt I just be able to smile and think how nice it must be for them to enjoy the day together?