The day is coming. No matter how much i dont want to think about it, its still going to come. I cant change time, although I would give anything to be able to right now.
Last year at this time, I was in Virginia with Lisa and Amber. My brother and SIL were in Ocean City on vacation. We called Mom a few times a day to check on her. She sounded fine and said she would see us in a day or two. When i got home, I found out practically since I had been gone, she had been vomiting non-stop. She didn't want to worry us or ruin our vacations, so instead, she didn't mention it. The next day she went back into the hospital. The news we got was devastating. The cancer had spread and there was nothing else left they could do. She came home from the hospital on August 31st on hospice care. 12 days later it was all over. I was an idiot to think she had months left.

A few minutes ago, I came across a quote. I dont know who wrote it, but i loved it. "Life is not measured by how many breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away". We all know life is too short. I think of how my Mom was taken from us at age 58. She was still so young. But then I think of her life and how much she accomplished, overcame and affected others. Her life was something to be proud of. She was independent and did whatever she could for herself. She worked hard, 2 jobs and many hours a week, so she didnt have to rely on anyone. She loved children and caring and nurturing them. If its one thing the grandkids will remember about her its how much she loved them. She played with them, read to them, watched movies with them.
As the anniversary of her death approaches, and sadness fills my heart, I need to remind myself that we were lucky to have her around for as long as we did. I need to remember that she was a wonderful person that touched the lives of everyone she knew. I need to appreciate and show love to the family that I do have left. I need to stop taking things for granted. I need to stop letting little things get to me and remember life is too short.