Listen to Hurt.
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting youS
ome days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, ohhIf
I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Well, its been awhile since I have felt like typing anything. I've been thinking about mom more than ever though lately. Last week, Tim and I had a yardsale. Mom used to love having the annual yard sale at Tim's house. She would prepare weeks in advance, marking everything. The morning of the sale she would get up at like 5 am to go set up. She liked to wear a Home Depot apron to put the "loot" in as she would say. We would laugh and talk about people, especially the cheapskates. It was different this year. I was daydreaming about previous years during the whole morning. And, I wont do another yard sale. That was the last one. It just isnt fun without her.
I took Kendra and Dragan to Florida last week too. We stayed at the Nickelodeon hotel. I have never in my adult life had so much fun. The kids and I loved everything and had the time of our lives. I kept wanting to call Mom to tell her about the things we were doing. I was jealous when i saw families there that had the grandparents with them. She would have had a great time with us and I know the kids would have loved her being there.