Today has really sucked emotionally for me. It started not 5 minutes after i got into the car this morning. When i was stopped at the red light, I looked over to the right only to see what i imagine was a 60 year old woman driving her 80 year old mother somewhere. Its fucked up that people that age still have their mothers around and here I am,.... 34 with no fucking mother.
It pisses me off when I hear people bad mothing their mothers too. Someone at work was talking about their mom "meddling" in their life. Isnt that what mothers do? I would kill to have my mom getting into my business about now. But instead, I have no one to tell me a damn thing, whether it be good or bad. I cant call my mom to ask her something. I cant call her to tell her about whats going on in my life. I cant call her to tell her how the kids are. I cant call to ask her a simple fucking question. And if I sound bitter, its because I am.
I still hate when people tell me that things happen for a reason. My mom getting cancer and dying in front of my eyes was for no good reason.