Wow, another month has past since I have posted on here. A close friend of mine just lost his mother to breast cancer, and another close friend of mine lost his dad to a heart attack. One of them was in her 70's and the other in his 80's. My mom didnt even make it to 60. She was only 58. Having to go to the funeral homes and send arrangements has really depressed me. All I could think about was my mom lying in the casket with her hands folded on top of her. It feels like yesterday that she died and I dont know how I ever managed to move on with my life. The kids and I lived with her. She was my best friend. She was the one I wanted to tell everything to and ask for advice all the time. God, I miss her. This sucks.
I cant get in the mood for Christmas either. I havent bought hardly any gifts and really dont have any desire to. I dont feel like setting up the tree or decorating. I wish it wasnt this time of year. But, the kids are getting excited so hopefully I will soon too. I will be alone Christmas afternoon when the kids leave and will probably just be pitiful by myself. lol