Today as Kendra and I were walking into the mall, in front of us were two older women walking next to each other. Clearly they were mother and daughter. The daughter was probably my mom's age and the mother probably about 80. When I saw them, instantly i was jealous. I figured they were going shopping and maybe even having lunch. I remembered the days when mom and I would go shopping and buy the kids things. Or, we would go to Costco for things we needed around the house. Many times we just went out to lunch. TGIFriday's was one of mom's favorites. She always got the triple jack combo. I was in a daze for about 10 minutes after seeing the ladies, with every memory I had of mom running through my head. I wanted to cry. I wanted to throw up. I was mad as hell at God for doing this to me! Why did that woman still have her mom around and here I am, way younger, with no mother? Then I started to feel guilty. Shouldnt I just be able to smile and think how nice it must be for them to enjoy the day together?