I wasn't sure how Mother's Day was going to be for the first time without my mom. But, it turned out to be a really nice day. The kids and I spent about an hour at the cemetary digging, planting and mulching. It looks really nice over there now. Mom always loved gerber daisies so we got 5 in different colors. Plus, Dragan had picked out 2 small plants at his school's plant sale. We cleaned everything up and made it look beautiful there. As we were leaving, we saw a tent sent up with a bunch of balloons. We asked about them and were told that we could write a message on them and at 3 pm they would be released into they sky. Dragan wanted to be first and wrote on his "Gram, I love you forever- Dragan". I wanted to cry. We all wrote on o ne (but Tor) and gave them back to the lady. We went back at 240 pm and just as we pulled in they were released. It was awesome. We watched them until we couldn't see them anymore and then Dragan said, "Well, I guess they got there, I dont see them anymore. I bet Gram is looking hard for hers!" Jason called and offered to get me crabs for Mother's Day and Tim and Shelli came over and had some with us. The kids got to play together and we ate.
Mom: I missed you today. There isnt a day that doesnt go by that we dont think of you. Everyday Dragan or Kendra or myself tell a story of a memory that we have of you. The other day I was taking myblood pressure and Dragan wanted to do it. I told him he couldnt and he said "Gram let me do it before!" I want them to remember you and all the fun times we shared and how important you were to them. I know they meant just as much to you. Im trying so hard, more than ever, to be the mom you always were. You had patience and love and acceptance no matter what we did. Im not you, but Im trying to be. I know you are proud of me. I love you always and forever and we will ALL be together again one day.